ho hum ho hum

hooooooo hum hoooooooo hum
it's weird, being alone, neither good nor bad totally. if you really settle into it, like the alaskan dude who lived like a hermit for 35 years in the hinterland, you realize that life just is. it is neither here nor there. you are really fine on your own. just fine. it's the media, the commercials, the looks that make you think you need a 1000 people around you at every second in order to be fulfilled. you don't really. some people sometimes yes. but you don't need to constantly be around people all the time to be complete.
you can just be. you can appreciate the wind rustling the leaves, you can think, you can remember what you think, you can remember what you feel, you can remember.

when i was a child, i could play for hours on my own. never bored. never really looking for someone to play with although if i had someone to play with that was awesome when it happened. that should be how it is when you're an adult. you should be fine just being/doing your own thing and then when someone shows up to make life more interesting then enjoy it, go for it, have fun with it, but it doesn't have to mean your whole life depends on it. you should be able to be happy just being where you are, right now. right here and now. that's what i think. nobody else has to see it that way if they don't want to. that's just how it is for me, right here right now.