i can't believe

anybody reads this stuff. I mean, who am I? I am a person like any other person. what is so important about what I am to say? nothing really and yet I write and I write and I write some more. why not? why the hell not? well, I figure if somebody out there wants to read it, I guess I owe them something to read. so here it goes...

this is what I learned today, in a nutshell. 1) you better learn something every day or you are liable to get old on the inside and out very fast, 2) you better listen to your heart and let it weep if it's going to weep so that later you can also tell yourself 10 reasons why you are the most awesome person in the world but you can't do that until you've at least let your heart and soul wallow as it will. as augusten burroughs has already written so well (and I will paraphrase him poorly), 'if you're trying to get to California but you refuse to acknowledge where you are at, then you will probably not be able to find your way to California on a roadmap.' it's the same with life - in order to know how to get to where you want to go, you also have to know where you are right now in all of its honesty, brutality, rawness, and rudeness and even lewdness. 3) sometimes it's important to sleep, but sometimes it's also important to know where you are at. 4) kids (or generally anyone younger than yourself) tend to have this ability to keep you youngish because they refuse to let you cling to any one thing for too long. 5) coffee is really important when your head is cloudy. 6) being grounded may get boring but sometimes that's more important than coffee. 7) weird random acts of kindness and creativity like this man taking a photo of our house back around Halloween time and then bumping into me in our alley the other day and promising me a copy of the revamped digitized photoshopped image was supercool and the only thing cooler was seeing the photo today which looks something akin to a perfect little toy model home in mr. roger's neighborhood... realizing that the universe sometimes plops this wyrd gifts in your lap for free is mind boggling to me. 8) changing what place you get your coffee at is important once in a while. 9) changing your routine in any sort of way is important all of the time. 10) a little writing goes a long way towards sanity.