to live on the edge

what does it mean ~ to live on the edge? I suppose it means something different for everyone. whatever your edge is, live on it. if your edge is... barely being able to go up and talk to a stranger then there, that's your edge. if your edge is... barely being able to be alone with yourself for more than 5 minutes, then bang there's your edge. and if it is constantly changing then there bam zap that's your edge. it doesn't mean throwing yourself off the edge. and it doesn't mean constantly relentlessly living on the edge because sometimes 'the edge' can be simply that... having some normalcy from time to time. but what it does mean, for me, is continually constantly challenging yourself. in whatever way that needs to mean. and then, once  challenged, sitting back for awhile to figure out what exactly you just saw when you peered over the edge and into the abyss.

right now? what is 'my edge'? it's the realization, the gut swallowed, deep down, heartfelt, toes tongue tied, zero gravity, absolute infinite total and infinitesimal and insubstantial and inconsequential unobliterated and oddly reassuring affirming awe-inspiring truth that... even when you are with the crowd, you are still essentially alone. and even when you are alone you are still essentially connected to everyone else around you.