relentless positivism

is ridiculous, I know, but I believe in it not because there isn't sadness and pointlessness and struggle in this world but because there IS all of that, and you need something to combat the negativity that comes at you when you least expect it, when you are tired, or low on gusto or inspirazione. you have to you have to you have to have a wellspring of positivism in order to combat it all, in order to outsource the negative thoughts, the negative words, the naysaying, the little voices here and there that focus on the 'no,' the limit, the what's wrong with our world, the shortcomings, the doom and the gloom, thinking inside the box, the little voices here and there that try try try to convince you that 'punishment' is the answer and a world devoid of mystery and generosity is somehow better for you because it 'works' and it's reliable but is it fun? no. is it warm to the touch and to the heart? no. I rely on relentless positivism because negativity is just too easy. because it is too easy, it's a "slide into the couch and can never get up" kind of  easy. I choose positivism because even though it may ask you to get up earlier than you want, or shut your mouth before you say something you regret, even though it may not always be your first choice or your easiest choice... in the end, it'll save you. and save all of the people around you whose energy will eventually buoy you up when you don't always have it in you. your mind will always float, if you let it, to the bottom of the barrel, it takes just a little, so little to lift it back up again. sometimes a pause. sometimes walking away. sometimes a deep breath. sometimes a good staring into space. but it will rise if you want it to. if you choose to. if you make it a priority. it will. but you have to will it so.