right now

there is a feeling
a feeling that is hard to describe but describe it I will try
because what else is life besides a feeling
a knowing
a direction that your body takes you
I am sitting here
not trying to be somewhere else
just sitting here
just content
not to go here or there or everywhere
not to try to please or entertain the kids
just to be here
like I was when I was a child
and I could just rest and daydream and rest and play and let my mind wander where it would
it's hard to find that place sometimes
it's so easy to keep thinking that there is something more important that I should be doing
right now
right now I should be somewhere else, catching up, doing what i'm supposed to, getting ahead
ahead of what?
ahead of myself
ahead of that knowing feeling that you are where you need to be right now
maybe tomorrow you need to be somewhere else
but right now you are where you need to be
and that is a good feeling.