sometimes it's good...

to take stock, to stop, to wait, to look, to wonder, to ponder, to just sit, to just not do anything, to just stop using commas to just keep going to just just just just just just stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop it's very freeing to stop it's very freeing to stop taking it in to stop taking in anymore from any direction at all like as if you are going on a fast no more from anybody not one more word not one more request not one more anything just be not one more book or news story or video or song or conversation just nothing more just to realize that you don't need anything else that you are okay as you are that there is nothing not a cup of coffee nothing that is going to make anything better besides just being where you are right now no  clean clothes no laundry being done no toilet being cleaned no counter being dusted or rearranged no clothes being picked up nothing is going to make you feel any better than just being where you are right now no song being sung no walk outside (well ok maybe a walk outside) but really there is nothing else that you need to do or be or say or eat or drink or touch (ok maybe touch) or lay down on or lay up on nothing nothing else needs to be said or done besides just being here right now and listening listening listening listening listening because it's all in the listening it's in noticing it's in paying attention like a hunter it's in stopping long enough and patiently enough to notice what is really going on to really see smell taste touch feel without really seeing smelling tasting or touching or feeling just using your senses without trying to use your sense just being in the 'beatles' sense of the word 'being' in the Buddhist sense too but not really because that often entails a lot of head battles just being just be here right now and don't think so hard about it just be and let it be and let it flow and let it go and pretty soon you will slow down enough to sit in your saddle of your beautiful horse and the horse will move and you will move too and you won't have to try so hard and it will just happen and you'll know what you need to do when the time and the day and the moment and the words tell you so.