oh my god, should i really do this?

yes I should
every single goddam day
write something
so I will
and a lot of it will be crap
and I can promise you that much
but some of it won't
and I can promise you that... too...yeah

let's see
profound momento of the day
when I realized that I wasn't the only person who analyzes to death things like
how long should one look at another person before turning one's gaze away
or
how long can I look away while forming my thoughts before the other person loses any interest in what i'm saying?
and sometimes people are thinking about what you're saying
even if they're not looking at you
and sometimes, they're just bored and zoning out
you never really know
so that's why you should just plunge ahead anyway
unless they tell you to stop droning on

and the funniest thing anybody has said to me in the last couple of days was this...
as I recounted for the umpteenth time
the circumstances of my speeding ticket
how I had been so focused on my 'to do' list and anxious about trying to get everything ready
for a party that was starting in a few hours that I just didn't have any brain power left to notice my speed but that I grew from this experience
and at least I learned to start using my cruise control
so that if I ever get too stressed out and forget to pay attention
at least the car will monitor my speed for me
and somebody said,
'oh great! even more reason to COMPLETELY disengage from the driving experience'
and I had to
laugh
laugh
laugh